Misanthropy.

I've been incredibly pissed at people lately. Yesterday was a fucking joke. I got ditched by DIFFERENT people for the 3rd week in a row. My friends are fucking awesome. I also have an english project due to tomorrow that I've been trying to get done since last Monday, but it all failed until today. Now we have to shove all the stuff we have to do in before the show tonight.

There are some good things going on, though. The show tonight....I can't wait. I dyed a shirt hiliter yellow. I'm gonna write "I FUCKING RULE" on the front. and "XEDENX" on the back, haha. :P 

Fall break is next week. That Wednesday is New Found Glory, A Day to Remember, Four Year Strong, Crime in Stereo, and ISHC at Rocketown. Party all week! I can't wait for Halloween, either. I need to find my costume.

Real lacrosse practice starts soon. We might be playing a jamboree at Limestone in South Carolina. 

This is the end of all life
This is the end of the world

Always at this time of night....

I think a lot, and too much at that. This is my first rambling blog, here goes....

I think I'm beginning to have feelings for someone after months of impossibly ever liking someone again. The sad thing is, I wish it was impossible right now. I don't really want to like this person, YET. Maybe later, just not now. And the one I really wish I could be interested in and slightly am, I don't want to like either because he's just bad news. 

I'm tired of my parents fighting about money. That's all it ever is, or about me. Both suck pretty bad. And seeing as how the stock market just dropped 500 points, that makes it fucking worse. I hate it. FUCK.

I'm finally over the last person I was involved with. I have been for awhile now. I feel like he still fucking talks to me whenever I listen to one band a certain few songs. It really depresses me.

I miss my friends. They've all changed, it seems like. I feel so seperated from some of them. I feel like I can't open up to a lot of them that I used to be able to. I kind of feel like I want to seperate myself even more, which is probably the last thing I should do. I think keeping to myself for a little bit may be a good thing though.

I just want to talk to this one person all the time. Fuckkkk. School is killing me, also. I can't make an A in English if I tried to. I'm scraping an A in Anatomy. Spanish just started getting hard, and no matter how hard I fucking try I really can't read a sphygmomanometer (blood pressure meter).

I'll get past it, it's just gonna take too damn long. And gas needs to go the hell down. 20 cents is not enough.

I'll keep on running this neverending race. Maybe next time will be the right time.

I'm not too sure.

I went to the UT vs UAB game with Jacob today. We killed UAB. 35 to 3. That's what I'm talking about.
However, I still don't like Crompton and his constant passes ALWAYS to Lucas Taylor. Someone's gonna figure out that that's the only dude you pass to.
Those 3 yard line interceptions were badass though.

On another note, I feel like I really got ditched by 5 of my friends tonight. A possible good night turned into a pile of shit. I got to hang out with Karen and see April for a bit, but nothing great really came out of it.

A close friend is turning into something she said she never would, and that person is the person that I dislike so much. It kills me. I say I don't care and it's their choice, but I really do care. 

Maybe it's just because Christianity and straight edge is all I really believe in, but I still don't like it. I just hope nothing bad happens.

I need to do homework.

Went to the fair.

I had fun. Best chocolate & sprinkle covered banana ever was consumed by me.
However, I almost hurled for the first time in my life from a ride. Holy shit.

Need sleep. Gotta wake up at 9:45 to go to the UT vs UAB game with Derrick and Jacob. They're bringing their girlfriends I don't know, apparently.




Awkward.