it's been a good minute since i posted.
i'm not even gonna update my life right now. alls i know is, my senior year has been full of useless, draining, extremely pointless bullshit so far. and it sucks. it's all came to help me realize who my real friends are here, though. i find it amusing that my side is taken on the whole situation (which it should be...) when they've known him waaaay longer and better. das cool! it's help me grow and move on and realize how immature people really are. accusations that are made are absolutely ridiculous. just because we/us are angry doesn't mean we're gonna come rob you or some shit. none of us really have a reason for any of it, and we all have a true, strong alibi. so whatever, you can believe what you want and keep talking all your shit even though you say you don't and act like the little angels that you aren't and never will be. lying pieces of shit.
i hate hypocrisy. sure, everyone does it sometimes but to necessarily live like that is absurd. enough is enough.
i really just don't know what's going on in my head right now. i feel misplaced and out of place. in the wrong decade. i need to be sent back to about 1952 and be born around then. or stick myself permanently in 2008. i don't really know where to go or what to do with my life right now, i'm just trying to find myself. i just can't keep my head on straight and focus. i need an inspiration.
maybe starting clinicals on the 21st will help me get my head together.
