I think a lot, and too much at that. This is my first rambling blog, here goes....
I think I'm beginning to have feelings for someone after months of impossibly ever liking someone again. The sad thing is, I wish it was impossible right now. I don't really want to like this person, YET. Maybe later, just not now. And the one I really wish I could be interested in and slightly am, I don't want to like either because he's just bad news.
I'm tired of my parents fighting about money. That's all it ever is, or about me. Both suck pretty bad. And seeing as how the stock market just dropped 500 points, that makes it fucking worse. I hate it. FUCK.
I'm finally over the last person I was involved with. I have been for awhile now. I feel like he still fucking talks to me whenever I listen to one band a certain few songs. It really depresses me.
I miss my friends. They've all changed, it seems like. I feel so seperated from some of them. I feel like I can't open up to a lot of them that I used to be able to. I kind of feel like I want to seperate myself even more, which is probably the last thing I should do. I think keeping to myself for a little bit may be a good thing though.
I just want to talk to this one person all the time. Fuckkkk. School is killing me, also. I can't make an A in English if I tried to. I'm scraping an A in Anatomy. Spanish just started getting hard, and no matter how hard I fucking try I really can't read a sphygmomanometer (blood pressure meter).
I'll get past it, it's just gonna take too damn long. And gas needs to go the hell down. 20 cents is not enough.
I'll keep on running this neverending race. Maybe next time will be the right time.
1 comment:
its me isnt it? eden. you should just know that i think you're pretty and all. but you're way too young. it just wouldnt be appropriate. so. I'm going to have to ask you to keep those feelings in check...
jk. hope you feel better soon :) please come to town and hang out???
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