last night.

was kind of a roller coaster. didn't do shit all day til like 7:30ish.  felt like dad pretty much called me a dumbass cause i missed a shit load of questions on my mock ACT test. don't really care anymore though.

i saw someone i hadn't seen in a long time. that's what i hate about being with someone. i can't talk to certain people and he was definitely one of them. i'm so glad that i saw him though. he made me feel like there's someone that really cares (which was him, of course) for me out there and someone is watching over me. he told me he was tired of me getting so fucked over and it's actually starting to upset him. why aren't there more people like that? i can't wait to see him again. i hope we can go back to where we were months ago. that's how i want it to be. he's one of the few genuine people i've met. along with crystal (luv uuuuuu). not to mention when i turn 18 he'll def do a tattoo for me. and he's pretty fuckin good. :P

as for my friends, i'm ready to distance the fuck outta myself from some of you. i'm about tired of this shit. but as for others, i'm gonna get closer to you. i want to meet new people this summer and rekindle relationships that i had last summer that i don't have now. or even before that. just old friends. and new friends. i kind of want a new start, but i can't really do that being 17 years old. oh well. i'll do my best. 

i'm changing this summer. i'm going to find a hobby. something i'm creative at (let's hope. probably gonna try photography). become more productive (even though it's summer. i'm still gonna be lazy as hell sometimes). when i start working, i'm gonna work more. i'm becoming a better person. and it's all because of recent events. and i'm so glad that i realized i can do this. no one can tell me i can't nor i won't. and i'm ready.

Now that you are out of my life, 
I'm so much better,
You thought that I'd be weak without ya,
But I'm stronger,
You thought that I'd be broke without ya,
But I'm richer,
You thought that I'd be sad without ya,
I laugh harder,
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya,
Now I'm wiser,
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya,
But I'm smarter,
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya,
But I'm chillin'

I'm a survivor,
I'm not gonna give up,
I'm not gon' stop,
I'm gonna work harder,
I'm a survivor,
I'm gonna make it,
I will survive,
Keep on survivin',
I'm a survivor,
I'm not gonna give up,
I'm not gon' stop,
I'm gonna work harder,
I'm a survivor,
I'm gonna make it,
I will survive,
Keep on survivin'.

Thought I couldn't breathe without you,
I'm inhalin'
You thought I couldn't see without you,
Perfect vision,
You thought I couldn't last without ya,
But I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without ya,
But I'm livin'
Thought that I would fail without ya,
But I'm on top,
Though it would be over by now,
But it won't stop,
You thought that I would self-destruct,
But I'm still here,
Even in my years to come,
I'm still gon' be here.