seconds.

i tried to post this and i hit the X button, COOL. i hate when i do that. cuttin' it short then.

"Romance is on your mind, no matter what your status may be right now, You may feel as if you're courting all over again -- or you may actually be pursuing someone new -- and your heart is totally in it!" <----- oddly accurate. 

been thinking about someone that was around a long, long time ago. about 2 years ago, actually. i guess i'm looking into this way too late seeing as how long ago this was. but hopefully i can somehow get my foot back in the door and he'll notice? who knows. it would be quite nice, but if not, oh well. life moves on.

sean is in town from florida. he goes home tomorrow. moshin errrwhur. 

go back to school in 13 days.  first semester =
1 - late arrival
2 - US gov/econ - mccrary/taft
3 - rehabilitative therapies - crook
4 - clinical internship - miller!!!! :)

one more thing. this summer is still wonderful. we still party. you're just not around because you're turning into the person you're dating. i don't think i've seen anyone take after someone like you have. not to mention i don't like him, so i'm definitely not into it. don't blame it on me or anyone else as to why everyone hasn't been hanging out, cause WE have. you haven't.  and i just don't think so. you can ask the four other people i've talked to. you're putting yourself back right where you were with the last one. spending days and days on end together. and then when you are back, i already have plans cause i've figured you were gonna be with him. and you get mad about it. i'm not even trying to blow you off. you just don't see it like we do, and one day i really hope you do or it's gonna be another 6 months of us not talking cause you're too busy with someone who probably wouldn't be around as long as me.
---> edit. <---- partying has NOT taken over my life, by any chance. i don't do anything out of the norm that i haven't been doing for the past eight months. i don't even want to deal with this. it's pointless. 

i already feel like i'm a wasted piece of life today. i can't put into words how i feel, but it's terrible. like a used napkin or some sort. i feel like i've already dug myself deep into a hole that's already too deep for me to escape, so i'll just keep digging. right?