you only live once.

that's exactly how i feel about the past few days. let me start from the beginning...
10 for 10 so stoked about? shut down. a huge fight broke out during Fingers Crossed (first band....) and the bouncers (like fucking always) took it out of hand and it turned into a brawl. I saw one of my best friends get arrested AND punched for trying to break up a fight, not to mention all of my other friends that got arrested for no reason. I hate the Valarium.
They wouldn't even give refunds. They said they would give you another ticket to another show there. Why the hell would you ever want to go back there after that shit? They ruined the day that I had been looking forward to for months. I only went to see really once band anyways who played right after FC (Trapped Under Ice).

Luckily, everyone came together and brought it all to Kay and April's. So many people showed up. The Ghost Inside, Crime in Stereo, This is Hell, (remaining) FC, Trapped Under Ice played. Terror and Death Before Dishonor did too but I didn't see them. It really made me feel like the scene came together to fix a problem quick. Now all we need to do is speak out and do something about the bullshit the Valarium is doing. For real....

It was overall good though. Went and hung out after the show with some people, etc etc. Good times. Now I really feel like I have to come back to reality. The beach, a great few days....now what?

I already started thinking. I just want to stay in this fantasy land that I have in my head right now, where my mind doesn't really play a role, and my heart is stuck in about last March but I want to stay in the summer. It's confusing. I keep wanting to think that everything will turn out like I want it to and like I feel it will turn to, but I know it won't. I know. It's all too good to be true. It really is....and it's not even good. >:/
I don't know what it is or why I'm still stuck here, but it's been months. On and off and I wish it would be fixed however that may be. I really have no idea....
Hopes. Dreams. Too good to be true, yeah.

Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully an answer will be found......but probably not.