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i never have an intention to hurt anyone, cause i just freak out when i do.

causing the situation to be worse.

i just try to be the friendliest one, the one people want to be around. i never felt that way growing up. i never felt that way in middle school. i didn't even start to feel it until probably sophomore year, and since then i've gone through so many groups of friends. 

i just don't have the heart to say anything to anyone. i'm quiet. that's the problem. i'm not loud and i don't speak whenever i want like others, but that's just how i am. i'm fine with it. i'm different. i just wish someone would understand, because it really, really sucks when someone close to you won't believe you. why would i even lie? i don't even know what to say.

i'm just so confused. and irritated with everything. 

I DON'T WANT TO START MY SCHOOL YEAR OUT LIKE THIS.

it's been such a long week.